The weather is getting nice in Jersey which means a lot of things are going on. The only problem is that I think I really want to go to these events until it’s time to go to them. One of my high school friends is moving to another state and she’s having her going away … More Social anxiety.
At times, I catch myself complaining about things that don’t even matter. I woke up today, I’m breathing, I have a place to live, yet, I find myself being upset about not being where I want to be. I am constantly working on myself and I have made progress. I know I have to trust … More Blessed.
The stigma that comes with getting sober can be very overwhelming at times. Overwhelming because a lot of people do not understand you. In an era where unlimited information is at our fingertips some people still refuse to learn about something they know nothing about. Sobriety is a tough journey, you realize very fast that you … More No, I can’t cut back on my drinking.
I never believed in myself. These past 4 months have been very different, something I have never experienced before. I have never been this spiritually connected to God and I must say that I wouldn’t trade it for nothing in the world. The peace I feel, the contentment I feel is indescribable. I still have … More Believe.
Alcohol has a way of making us feel good. For most of my adult life I depended on alcohol to get me through life, until, I realized that I was selling myself short. I was basically depending on something that was destroying me from the inside out. When you are always drunk you don’t face … More Selling myself short.
As much as I loved to get drunk, I’ve come to the realization that sobriety is one of the best gifts I could have ever given myself. I’m only 40 days in and my mind gets clearer by the day. Before I got sober I was so depressed, my mind was constantly filled with so much negativity, everything … More The gift of sobriety.
As the year is coming to an end, like many of us, I’ve been thinking about everything that has happened this year. My life now is different from how it first began in 2016, and to me that is nothing, but , PROGRESS. Progress is a great thing. Most of the time we get caught up … More Change in a year.
I never knew I was addicted, until I tried to stop. 6 days ago, it was Friday. My usual Friday ritual is to stop at the liquor store before going home, not that day. I literally had to argue with myself so I wouldn’t go pick up some Bacardi. As soon as I got home, I … More The last drinks.
Last night I got wasted. 2 days before that I was wasted. The day before that I was wasted. LETS GET WASTED! Wasted to the point where I’m still drunk a couple hours after I wake up. I’ve been drinking a lot. I’ve also been spending a lot of money on alcohol. I’ve been eating … More Wasted.