God, purge me.

You can’t grow in pride .

Pride makes you feel like you know it all.

If you know it all, you don’t need God.

God literally works everything out for our good.

Even in pride he reveals to us that we in fact, Don’t know it all.

In our dry place he reveals to us that he is indeed the only one that can fill us until we overflow.

In our dark moments Gods power is revealed.

We can get so sidetracked . Being holier than thou. Forgetting what it’s all about. Forgetting how you first felt when you came to Christ . The joy, the freedom, the peace, the love , the overflow of grace. Soon after that comes a process.

A process of healing. A process of growing. A process of stepping out on faith. A process of going through pride , loneliness, fear , and shame.

God’s power works best in weakness . It is when we our weak that he reveals to us who he really is. In our weakness he covers us. In our weakness he graces us. In our weakness he forgives us . In our weakness he heals us.

We must be real with ourselves. We will never know it all. Lord , help us to stay humble. Reveal your nature to us. Fill us with your love , peace, mercy and forgiveness. Let your will be done in our lives. Replace our desires with yours. Change us. Have your way. You’re worthy. We give you glory.

The process is where we learn . The process is where we grow. The process is where we our tested. The process is where God sees if he can trust us or not. Even the process can be used for his glory. The highs and the lows. Nothing is ever wasted .

Romans 8:28

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Dropping my Religion.

We often times get caught up in working for God instead of seeking God. When we seek God, he changes us. He transforms us from the inside out.

I often see that we start working for GOD before we are transformed. We start putting all our energy into everything , but, our own transformation. When we allow God to change us from the inside out , that’s when we will have breakthroughs. There’s beauty in serving the world. Servanthood is a posture of the heart. Our hearts must be changed . If our hearts are not changed, we will assume that our works is the reason God loves us. Truth is, God loves you before you do anything . Works doesn’t save you. Intimacy with Christ saves you. Faith saves you. Repentance saves you. Everything else is just what flows out of your relationship with Christ .

You will have no problem serving when you’re intimate with Christ .

You will have no problem tithing when your heart is transformed.

You will have no problem helping when you seek God.

We got this all wrong. It’s not in the works where we see God’s glory. It’s in the seek. Out of that seek you will work and out of those works you will see his glory. Works without seeking Christ is just works.

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God is too good.

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Sometimes, you don’t see God. Sometimes, you are angry at God. Sometimes, you hate the process. Sometimes, you cannot make sense of what is happening. Sometimes, you doubt. Sometimes, you want to give up. In the midst of the trials, God is still good.

I remember being on fire for God earlier this year. I was ready to walk into purpose 100%. Fear was gone. Then.. my cousin overdosed.

This one was personal. I wanted him to win this battle so bad. I knew his struggles. I knew how bad he wanted to overcome. I knew he was doing his best. But, he lost the fight. I tried to understand it. I was in denial. I was angry. I was sad. I was questioning God. I was confused. Just when I was making progress this took the wind out of me. I threw my hands in the air and told myself I was done trying.

I knew I wasn’t done. I know my cousin wouldn’t have wanted me to stop. If anything, him not being here is a reason for me to go even harder. Addiction is one of those topics that I will never stop talking about. From my personal experience to seeing how it destroys lives, I will never stop talking about the power of God.

In the midst of it all, God is still too good. He never left me. At times, when I want to pick up the bottle again, I know I can’t. I know the next time I won’t be so lucky. 2018, I got me back, but, I lost one of my cousins. It still hurts. One thing is for sure , I can’t give up. I can’t change what has happened. I can only change me. Time doesn’t stop.

Sometimes, I want to do something that’s a little bit easier. Something that does not require me to be vulnerable and real. But, I know this is what I’m here for. I’m here to transform my life to show others that it can be done. Someone somewhere needs to see me overcome. I can’t give up, someone is depending on me.

If you are in the midst of a trial, don’t give up. Prayer is your weapon. Trust God. Someone needs you. You are an answer. The sun will shine again.

 

Church girl.

It almost seems like unless you’re married the church has nothing to say to you. They don’t tell you how to thrive in your single season. They don’t tap into those broken parts of you that need healing in order for you to be a good wife/mother. It feels like you’re overlooked most times because you’re single.

Reality check. Single people have problems too.

I’m honestly sad at the fact that so many women love God but are so broken. They want to walk in Gods will, they want to thrive in life , but have no idea how. How have you been in church your whole life and healing hasn’t touched you? Did we honestly just tell people not to have sex until marriage , love God with all your heart and everything is going to be okay? I’m so confused.

I honestly don’t know what’s going on in churches but I know what’s not going on…. healing.

Jesus Christ did not die on the cross for you just for you to go to heaven. He died so you can live a life full of freedom here on earth, too. How Do we have access to freedom but choose bondage? Easy. We don’t know any better. All we know is bondage, it’s comfortable… so we stay.

Single people are broken. Married people are broken. We have to stop telling people to just pray. Yes, God delivers through prayer . But , we have to stop being lazy. When do we actually disciple people out of bondage? When do we step up and show people how to thrive in God? How do we preach bible and follow it up with action? How do we heal from our past? How do women forgive their rapist? How does a woman forgive the parent that abandoned her? How does a woman thrive when all she knows is pain? I’m honestly tired of seeing so many Christians stuck. The same power that rose Jesus Christ from the dead lives within us , yet , we don’t own that truth.

Church girl. I see you. I hear you. I get your pain.

I know you feel alone. I know you wish you had someone to talk to . I know you want to be free.

I know you’re tired of being single . I know your marriage isn’t what you thought it would be. I know you feel misunderstood. I know it’s hard. I feel your pain.

Nothing is wrong with you because you’re still single. You are still fearfully and wonderfully made. You are not a failure because you got divorced. You are not any less than because you don’t have a child. You are a good mom even if you lose your patience. God loves you like crazy and it’s okay not to be okay. I know you’re frustrated, but, you are not alone. God hears you! Keep reaching out to him, cry out to him! Find at least one woman you can confide in that can pray for you and give you wise counsel.

Church girl, you are the daughter of a King. Before he formed you , he knew you. Ask God to help you forgive the ones that hurt you. Ask God to reveal the parts of you that need healing. Cry ! There’s a healing that only comes from crying. Clean out your soul so you can walk in freedom. YOU DESERVE IT!!!

Jesus didn’t come to judge the world but to save the world!

I pray that we can all be open and transparent in our church homes. I pray that God changes the heart of his people . I pray that we love one another even when we share our deepest secrets, hurts, and experiences. I pray that no matter what , we love our brothers and sisters unconditionally, not only in encouragement but in action as well .♥️✝️

The devil is a liar!

Why is it so easy to focus on the negative instead of the good? Lately, I have been in such a funk. I was angry and mad at everything. Everything was bothering me and I was literally over everything. God, I want you but I don’t desire you. I want to live for you, but , I’m lonely. I want to stay pure , but, I also want to have sex. I want to live for you, but, at times I don’t.

God, this is too hard.

We all know that if you are going to be spiritually fit, it is going to take work. You will not wake up day after day in a good mood without putting in the work. We have to work for our peace. We have to work for our joy. We have to seek God to build fruit. I don’t know about you, but I can’t love everybody with my own strength. The way I’m used to doing things is by lashing out and seeking revenge. I know that in order for growth to happen something has to change. Thank you God for showing me.

Not to long ago,  someone said something to me regarding my social media posts and it really bothered me. People love my posts and a lot of individuals can relate. A lot of people are in pain and that’s who God created me for , the hurting. I thank God for my calling . I have to admit though, sometimes it is hard. People can be mean and you want to be mean right back. I have to remember that this is not about me. This is about bringing glory to God so people can be set free.

I know who I am. I fought hard to get here. I fought hard for my healing. The enemy has a way of convincing you that you have a right to be upset and lash out. The devil wants us in discord, he doesn’t want us to love unconditionally. Just like God has an agenda for us , so does the enemy. The spiritual fight is a battle. Because we don’t see the enemy physically we often forget about him. We make excuses for our behavior and don’t realize how the enemy plays a part in it .

I have to keep reminding myself that this is a war, we don’t fight with each other. We fight the only way we know how to fight , through prayer. I can fight with everyone around me or I can choose to pray. God changes our heart in prayer. Prayer is such a powerful weapon. When you pray you can defeat the enemy. When you pray you hear God’s voice. When you pray you know when you are being attacked. I got comfortable and stopped praying. I learned my lesson. Never stop praying.

God is so good. He is so faithful . Seek him. Repent. Forgive. Stay prayed up. He can change things in an instant.

Ephesians 6- 12 For we[d] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

When God says “NO”.

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Sometimes, people come back into our lives and we assume it is for our good. We assume that this time around it will be different. We assume that God brought this person back for us to connect again. Can it be that God sends someone back into our lives to test our love for him? To test our faith? To test our obedience? To test our character?

I love a man who I know I cannot be with. It is not God’s will for my life and I know that. I still entertained the conversation because it felt good. Being around this person gave me butterflies. Even though it felt great, I knew deep within me that this man is not for me. Not right now. He’s not ready. Will he ever be ready? I don’t know. What I do know is that I have to let it go. I can’t convince this man to grow. I can’t bring him to church with me. I can’t tell him to stop his dysfunctional patterns. That is not my place. God didn’t put me here to change a man. He put me here to crave him and do the work that he wants me to do. Only God can change the condition of a man’s heart.

Did it hurt to put my foot down, say no, and walk away? YES.

“God, but I love him, why can’t you change him?!”

Isn’t that what we always ask the Lord? We start to question God’s faithfulness. We start to question his timing. We start questioning our faith.

One thing that I learned about God is that he is our protector. Can It be that God will use someone in your life to teach you a lesson and grow you in the midst of it all? Can it be that the enemy sent someone to distract you and drain you so you don’t fulfill God’s calling over your life? Is it God or is the enemy? Let’s be real! Sometimes, IT’S NOT GOD.

Our flesh desires this person and we start making excuses. We start praying for them. We invite them to church. We love them. But we do it all for the wrong intentions. We do it because we want the man, not because we really care about his salvation. We do it for our own selfish gain. We have to be careful with what we chase. When God says no, nothing will work out. You will keep hitting walls. It will drain you instead of growing you.

Always remember….. The enemy drains, God grows.

trust his no.